Paul MUREȘAN: Ai de capu' meu

 

Quadro 21 Gallery

Preview: 28th of May 2018

Exhibition: 29th of May - 14th of July 2018 

Curator: Székely Sebestyén György

 

People ask you “What are you trying to say with this?” as if you were trying to say something but couldn’t find the words. When we spend time with children, we don’t expect to understand everything they say, but we take pleasure in being with them. It’s the same with dogs, cats or fish. When we have dogs around, they can make a whole lot of noises; we don’t understand what they are intending to communicate, but we enjoy their being with us. We could have the same pleasure in relation to art. Does it give me a feeling? What kind of feeling? Does it make me anxious? Why am I anxious? It means that I am associating something inside my head with something I am looking at. The drawing, which doesn’t give you a very clear explanation, helps you explore something within yourself that worries you. When you succeed in following that thread, in seeing in what direction that worry leads, you discover something about yourself.

With every project, drawing or animation, I try to do something else, to explore different areas. I would see it as a failure, a lack of courage, to keep on doing the same thing.  I always try to take things even further, even if I come up against a brick wall. At the moment I want to go back to the Paul of my high school days. He kept trying to explore certain areas – family, his own identity, sexuality – through drawing. I didn’t understand what I was going through; I just went on doing drawings and noticing that they were turning out very dark or very luminous or very disturbed. I want to re-encounter that Paul, because I really liked the way he used to draw. I began these drawings on the walls here without any image in my head, just with this wish to re-encounter myself. I feel a bit of a sense of mourning for that Paul who seems to me to have disappeared a long time ago. It seems to me that a part of me has changed forever.

That’s why the exhibition is called “Woe is me”, because I have the impression that we use our minds as a kind of carpet under which we sweep the thoughts we don’t want to have such ready access to. I think all these thoughts join forces and visit us in our sleep, in times of silence, on Sunday afternoons… I want to open up this space to the public. I want people to visit that uncomfortable space we found ourselves in when we were standing in the corner as a punishment. The visitor will enter an area in which A is not connected to B, B is not connected to C, but rather A is connected to G, to sigma and to other letters the visitor has never seen before. The exhibition puts the viewer in an area of uncertainty, an uncomfortable place, and then he can ask himself some questions. But this area is not only uncomfortable; there are drawings I regard as pleasant to look at, and then I open up an uncomfortable but spectacular area. We can look at the unpleasant part of the mind as if it were a spectacle performed exclusively for us. I am putting on a spectacle from the garbage bin inside my head.

Paul Mureşan (born in 1989, Bistrița) is a young Romanian director, animator and illustrator, and an LGBTQ+ activist. He is known for his awarded animated short film Baby Nap (2014), followed by Mom, Dad, I Have to Tell You Something (2016). His short films have been selected in festivals around the world such as Annecy, ITFStuttgart, Cannes and Anim’est.